12. Vipassana. Towards the End

by HelluvaGirl

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report. 


As May unfolds, the sun begins to play around and I take my blanket out on the grass for a nap. All the other girls have been doing it for days now, but the weather is too cold for me, the ground is too hard and the air too noisy with all the flies. However, when it becomes warmer outside than in my cell, I give this nature thing a shot. 

I don’t fall asleep, of course. Just snooze.

I’ve lost weight. We don’t eat a lot but then again, we don’t spend energy on anything but short and slow walks.

I keep thinking that I’ve no sunscreen as I keep my face in the shade.

They’ve promised to teach us a different meditation technique called metta bhavana as a wrap-up of the 10 day course. I am curious about that, and also wonder about something else.

People look aloof and complicated around here, submerged in their universe of contemplations, issues, inner search. I try to imagine what happens on the last day that we are allowed to speak before leaving, to sort of transition into the normal world. Will we actually want to talk to each other? Perhaps exchange several polite phrases and then just wait to get our mobile phones back and hit the road?