by HelluvaGirl

The change is ongoing.

Even when we speak truths less pleasant than the regular small talk, they do not disrupt our connection.

I find it really special. We are becoming friends. It’s like I have imagined in the ideal world. Feelings like tenderness, caring and kindness are growing inside of me.

And I am becoming calmer. Sober. Less egocentric and selfish. More accepting our reality as a whole. More patient and humble. Not fussy and needy as ever. And I’m very happy it’s less words and more substance now.

I can’t believe I’m in the place where I could actually accept you being forever this intangible concept, yet someone I cherish no matter what the future brings. It means a lot to me – to witness myself on this peaceful path. I am the all-or-nothing woman, remember?

And yet nothing’s as it used to be now that I know you. And I sense it’s just the beginning, and I am ready to face everything that’s ahead of me.

I accept us the way we are, even if it doesn’t change before we meet in another life. I will just let it evolve in front of my eyes and embrace it.

Thank you for being my Teacher. I’ve always wanted one but never expected you. The thing with you is that the chemistry is inclusive of every possible form of attraction. As if you unlocked all levels of my human construct and now I can make miracles for breakfast.

One Clever Person once told me:

You’ll see, one day you’ll smile at your child and tell her you are so loving because you didn’t get everything you wanted.