Strange thing, huh

by HelluvaGirl

To be with him, I would have to break myself. My head explodes from pain whenever I try to imagine us even getting close together emotionally.

From the outside, it would seem the rightest thing to do.

But is it supposed to be like this? Are we to break, to shatter ourselves to pieces to be with someone? Aren’t we supposed to be with people who allow, encourage and stimulate us to be who we are, the most and the best of us?

I am scared of getting back with him the way I am afraid of marriage. Annihilation.

Is it my ego? Is he my Teacher?

Or maybe this is ideal relationship: together, apart.