HelluvaGirl

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12. Vipassana. Towards the End

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** As May unfolds, the sun begins to play around and I take my blanket out on […]

11. Vipassana. Habits

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** get up at 4 am briskly throw on the clothes folded out the night before wait […]

9. Vipassana. Work vs. Family

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** For the past couple of years, I’ve been having an inner struggle coming to terms with […]

The Sound of Silence

Barcelona. Day Two. Part One

I wanted this holiday to be easy-going. No excessive planning in advance (though I did a bit of homework, inevitably), no strict abidance to the plan and no consequential stress. Happy to say it works. I just notice situations where I would begin to get nervous or hurry and I just don’t. We went to […]

Barcelona. Day One

I always knew I’d love Barcelona. I mean I’m a fan of cinema, and what the spectacularly-directedsights of the city in Vicky Christina Barcelona didn’t do, Javier Bardem did. And the spicy yet paradoxicallyidealistic although too realménage à trois. And Christina’sphrase at the end, on the escalator: I don’t know what I want. Anyway, I […]

Fears

What are you afraid of?

Hope I Don’t Fall in Love with You

The Strange Universe of Facebook

There are two types of reactions I get when I tell someone I don’t have a Facebook account: “Really? Wow, respect!”/”OMG, me too!”/”You are so, so cool. I should get rid of mine as well.” “Hmmm. Only idiots, creeps and antisocial types don’t have a Facebook profile. You don’t seem to be either of those, so […]

Dialogue on Youth

We read a kids’ encyclopaedia which says no one actually knows at what point they start growing old. I look at the ceiling and muse away: Hmmm, I think growing old is a state when you stop being interested in things… you don’t want anything… you are not curious any more… you just stay still. […]

He Is Happy. We Are Different

There are few things as eye-opening as meeting someone who is completely, utterly, essentially different from you. Not only you see the obscure unfold before your eyes. All that you are (not) at the core takes a visible shape, too. *** He is happy.

Giving in to the Risk

I took a little risk this morning. My car insurance had expired last night and the girl was supposed to email me the papers today some time before noon. I could’ve bothered to take a bus. It would’ve been a longer and much more inconvenient journey to work, albeit not involving the risk of getting […]

On Sharing

I want to hold your warm hand and share my cold with you. I want to share the intimate silence that lives between us, accompanied by a touch and the awakened new energy streaming up the veins. I want to share with you the moment of timelessness filled with the sense of bliss after which you know […]

Salvation

3.30 am. We sit on the sofa, feet up; she says, wanna hear the song I’ve been playing on repeat? We listen smiling and she goes, hey wait this could totally be your song, too! And I’m like, yeah…

4.30 am

there’s nothing like driving empty streets the sky inviting daylight no cars to overtake just chet and me feels like a film where i play someone i want to be