HelluvaGirl

This is not a diary any more

Tag: Soulmate

chaos

chemicals rush in the brain predictable configurations of possible outcomes of all interactions from the beginning of time in love insane quiet funerals of loud ideals are the favourite places to be now looking for triggers to feel anything at all *** 19 July 2015

Still Life

There are loves that leave you out of balance. Loves that make you smile years after they pass. The ones you chat about with old friends. The others that are better forgotten. And I think some people, once in their lifetime, find themselves in a firestorm of unearthly nature.

Be Calm

Be calm. Be still. When you walk down the street, feel the motion around you slow down, the air thin out, and hear the Eternity whisper. The times I walk my cold avenues and you stroll your sunny alleys, if you could just grasp that moment, we would meet. That thinning of the air, that slowing down of motion. […]

Visions

Who can tell whether we’re alive or dead? Either way, we live in the heaven or hell of our choosing. I live in my almost heaven with the elements of purgatory. They were the entrance fee. 

Connection Lost

…and I have known the most vivacious of emotions – raging fire, burning ice, torrential water, scorched earth…. and yet they are all tame when compared to the glow of the moon and a gentle, yet unassuming, spark in the dead of night. Stars peppering the heavens again… Such is the power it has over […]

calling out to planet sisyphus

you know how it feels to be strange stars scattered across the universe with orbits that never cross paths we are strange planets with memories of being people who walk the earth look into each other’s eyes fall in love have we ever been that? have we been anything else but those huge rocks with […]

Fate

I flew away, leaving the ocean behind my back. Its endless surface was glimmering at the perennial moonshine, covered by vast comforting darkness, undisturbed by human sounds or the wind. The smell of the sea – it follows you no matter how far away you go. It lingers on your skin and drenches into your spirit. 

Colour to the Soul

There are people in our lives who eventually turn into concepts ingrained in our core. Their lives apart from us blend into our soul and add another shade to our identity. Their history is ever-present in the way we look at things, like a one-of colour in our sentiment. They saturate our perception. And there is no […]

Pain

You’ll see, one day you’ll smile at your child and tell her you are so loving because you didn’t get everything you wanted. I was driving home, feeling nauseous. The sun was finally showing off, painting rainbows on leaden skies. A rare guest this spring, she acts like a schoolgirl skipping class.

birthday gift

drowning in anticipation doubtful of the chance and then and then the ray of sun making my day melting in sweetness in blossom-like rapture it’s all i wished for today

Cyclical

I have come to know those tides now. They rise. Time and again. Each time in a different, more and more subdued way. Only a vibration of a deep underground explosion now.

Irreversible

The day before you love an illusion                                                                            don’t you see how you’re just filling a gap     […]

Growing Old Is the New Black

I’ve never expected to feel this way, but now that I look in the mirror and see my face growing old, all the wrinkles and other signs of time, feelings and inner fights, I worry not.

My Heaven Is a Strange Place

This is how I live. This is how I love. This is mine. *** Before his death, my Grandfather would spend his days lying in bed. Sometimes, I’d come into his room, sit beside and watch his face. The hazy look, wandering some distant terrains, as he was already on his way. I felt he could tell […]

This Is How

Your words. The ones I wanted to hear. The ones I was meaning to say to you. Not to write – I thought some of them ought to be said looking into the eyes before they were written in letters. I thought if this superstition was disregarded, the higher powers would close the roads that lead us to each […]