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16. Vipassana. Takeaway

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** The next morning everyone is cleaning up before departing. There’s a number of volunteers who stay […]

15. Vipassana. Beardman

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** I approach him as he watches the serene sunset. There’s a girl lying curled up on […]

7. Vipassana. The Past < ? > the Future

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** As I sit in the meditation hall for hours and hours each day, I notice that […]

6. Vipassana. Addhitana

Disclaimer: This is a personal experience of a novice in Vipassana, presented as a series of insights, not an attempt to render advice or explain the technique in full extent, and should not be taken as guidance or a comprehensive course report.  *** On the fourth day, we begin to practice the real Vipassana. For two hours straight, we […]

Buddha at the Gas Pump. Jan Esmann

Jan Esmann interview After watching a portion of this video I had a strange dream. *** My whole life, experiencing the loss identity I’d feel like shit. I used to be so convinced I was supposed to be something. Clear-cut. Turns out I should’ve revelled in this state of in-between, in the grey nothingness I’ve known so well.

Working on It

It’s been 34 days now. The Teacher says it takes 40 days for a very strong and constant thought to submerge to our subconscious and become our guiding attitude. I have been working on it for almost as long and I’m determined to continue towards that indefinitely.

On the Eyes Wide Shut

I had a dream once. I saw an ocean and a sky of supernatural colours, resembling those of a sunset on the Earth, only they were bright orange, red, yellow and gold, and also blue and purple in places. It was hard to tell the sea and the sky apart as the sight was pulsing […]