HelluvaGirl

This is not a diary any more

Tag: love

sing

i used to be afraid of many things invisible irrational and unexplained this fear would paralyse me to my fingertips till i could barely breathe making my way i found myself a weapon then resembling a little secret spell invisible irrational unverified protecting from my sneaky monsters still i’d sing i’d sing myself to calm to […]

Still Life

There are loves that leave you out of balance. Loves that make you smile years after they pass. The ones you chat about with old friends. The others that are better forgotten. And I think some people, once in their lifetime, find themselves in a firestorm of unearthly nature.

Insanely in Love

I want to fall in love. The no-looking-back way, there’s-nobody-else-in-the-world-I-see kind of way. I want it to be crazy and sparkling with chemistry, and mutual. I have been pressing myself to be practical with relationships lately. 

Be Calm

Be calm. Be still. When you walk down the street, feel the motion around you slow down, the air thin out, and hear the Eternity whisper. The times I walk my cold avenues and you stroll your sunny alleys, if you could just grasp that moment, we would meet. That thinning of the air, that slowing down of motion. […]

Man on the Moon

Never Keep Your Heart Safe

To K. B. Never keep your heart safe Locked up in a dusty guest room Packed in a cardboard box Next to memories Of past loves and broken affairs And missed opportunities Don’t preserve it in a neat glass jar For bystanders to watch From every possible angle Without a chance to touch Don’t settle […]

calling out to planet sisyphus

you know how it feels to be strange stars scattered across the universe with orbits that never cross paths we are strange planets with memories of being people who walk the earth look into each other’s eyes fall in love have we ever been that? have we been anything else but those huge rocks with […]

Fate

I flew away, leaving the ocean behind my back. Its endless surface was glimmering at the perennial moonshine, covered by vast comforting darkness, undisturbed by human sounds or the wind. The smell of the sea – it follows you no matter how far away you go. It lingers on your skin and drenches into your spirit. 

Take Your Time

You could’ve rolled your eyes Told me to go to hell Could’ve walked away But you’re still here And I’m still here Come on let’s see where it goes

Playing with Numbers

Pain

You’ll see, one day you’ll smile at your child and tell her you are so loving because you didn’t get everything you wanted. I was driving home, feeling nauseous. The sun was finally showing off, painting rainbows on leaden skies. A rare guest this spring, she acts like a schoolgirl skipping class.

Mirrors

Birthday Thank You

I want to take a moment to say how grateful I am to be remembered by every single person today who is very important to me and whose attention is a gift in itself. Like everyone else I enjoy a warm word and a kind wish on a birthday. It’s even more cool of you to reach […]

Not in That Way

Snow on the Sahara

Since I was a teenager, this song would arise very strong emotive associations which I’ve never tried to put into words before. Tearing longing; feelings that outlast relationships or people, tragedies or impossibility; being left alone without a choice but to love… Have you ever experienced strong feelings that were sort of… not yours?