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Tag: feelings

Snow on the Sahara

Since I was a teenager, this song would arise very strong emotive associations which I’ve never tried to put into words before. Tearing longing; feelings that outlast relationships or people, tragedies or impossibility; being left alone without a choice but to love… Have you ever experienced strong feelings that were sort of… not yours?

Growing Old Is the New Black

I’ve never expected to feel this way, but now that I look in the mirror and see my face growing old, all the wrinkles and other signs of time, feelings and inner fights, I worry not.


He does the dishes, allowing me to sleep longer before we have to leave. He makes my bed neatly like a monk while I’m in the shower. He buys me things, saying it’s his pleasure.

Redirect Inoperative

All of us are shells: different faces, names, appearances… But inside, we are all the same. I used to be quite good at redirecting feelings from one shell to another. Another thing I gave up. Seem to be brilliantly losing some of my firmly ingrained skills. I guess this is how it is now.

The Season of the Perfect Storms

And then those other fantasies came.

Departure Bay

httpv://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1jwpwtwOj0 This one still gives the strongest emotional echo in my chest. Thoughts, memories, imagination… Sometimes I feel like I own experiences that are not mine. As if I have lived in the books I’ve read. As if I feel what I couldn’t possibly.

On the Way

I think I have told you everything there is to tell another person, and yet it still feels like a vast Universe untold, and I am desperate I will never have a chance, or time; that I will die, and nobody will let you know why I don’t reply to emails.