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Tag: darkness

Connection Lost

…and I have known the most vivacious of emotions – raging fire, burning ice, torrential water, scorched earth…. and yet they are all tame when compared to the glow of the moon and a gentle, yet unassuming, spark in the dead of night. Stars peppering the heavens again… Such is the power it has over […]

Give You What You Like

So dark… My mind travels to places where one feels stuck, having no way out as if inside a closed matrix without a code to break.

The Hanging Tree

One of the most suggestive pieces ever. Gives me shivers every time as the mind travels to dark and shady places you’d think no one walks at night. Do you ever wonder what happens there when the light is absent, or when no one is around? Strange things could happen and I believe they do. […]


Down in the Well

I comb my mind, looking for the manifestations of lethal attachments having consumed me entirely, and I let everything go, breathing it out. I give myself lengthy lectures on my personal wishes being secondary, whilst the destined course of events, the divine plan primary and definitely not something to try and eliminate with a sack of explosives […]

3. Transformation. Air

I was floating in the heart of a tornado, unable to see a thing through the thick darkness of the black waves around me – yet I was at home: still, warm and safe. The eye of the storm.

Anger And Disappointment

When I can’t have it my way, I get angry and disappointed. This is what I feel more and more often lately. If what I reflect on the situation is the drilldown of my content, am I just angry and bitter? Is this what will kill it?

Love Story

I remembered this really strange new thing that happened twice within the past several months within the total of 33 years – I felt like calling my father. No reason. No actual topic to cover, either. But I’d call him still. He’d be surprised and fairly lost after realising I called because I only wanted to chat.

My Letter to You, Five Years from Now

It is amazing how passionately we move towards some things that in the course of time appear to have been of a very different purpose than it seemed at the moment passing by. Some of them, though, leave you wondering about the possibilities that are given to you but not fully, as if we were […]

On the Other Side of Light

I found a bump in my breast. I always love to see her. There is a certain light around some people, like an almost visible cloud that makes you breath in deeper and smile as they approach. It’s an active energy, a positive determination that’s very catchy and uplifting. You meet them, and you instantly […]