HelluvaGirl

This is not a diary any more

The River And the Cloud

Whenever there’s a day of silence between us, I fall into the water of the river Goodbye.

I’m thinking you resigned. You got tired and gave up. You decided to stick to your path and not challenge the slim chance of you and me becoming us. This is crazy after all, and life tends to embrace us with its firm reality. This is it. We have to enter past tense and write a book or something. Or jump into a random distraction to just keep the mind busy.  Read the rest of this entry »

Everything Is Second Best Now

Always thought that as soon as I knew what I wanted, life would become clear-cut.

I know what I want now, crystal clear. Read the rest of this entry »

Outside the Doors

Do you notice how men stand in queue to talk to you? They come up one after another.

No, there aren’t that many.

Of course, there’s an old lover who’s always there. Read the rest of this entry »

Ride

Brother

Just Give Me a Reason

Chant de la Lointaine

… Je serai, dans ton coeur, l’été sans fin des îles
Du Sud, un paysage vierge où tes accords
Connaîtront la beauté de se sentir dociles
Au rythme élyséen des lignes de mon corps ; Read the rest of this entry »

Poppies on a Minefield

We were from the Beginning, if there was one. You and I.

We are everything, like everything else in the universe. Cells in the organism. Barely individual, just on the surface. Dive deeper – and there are no faces, genders, concepts, attributes, peculiarities. We are but particles of the force of life which I sometimes call God. Or Love.

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Night Flight. Version 2

You are with me wherever I travel.

You are in me.

Every sight I discover is drenched in your presence as if you were looking at things my eyes and experiencing together. Read the rest of this entry »

On Sharing

I want to hold your warm hand and share my cold with you.

I want to share the intimate silence that lives between us, accompanied by a touch and the awakened new energy streaming up the veins.

I want to share with you the moment of timelessness filled with the sense of bliss after which you know you can die without a single regret because it is more than you’ve ever hoped to experience.  Read the rest of this entry »