This is not a diary any more

Walking with Elephants

Well done Mario Bassanov! A piece by a Lithuanian DJ on the European Hit Radio Top playlist.


She Came to Give It to You

The refrain sounds like actual music!

Ignore the plastic.


the more

you run in my veins

the more

i’m forgetting your face

I Don’t Think About You Anymore But, I Don’t Think About You Anyless

The Season of the Perfect Storms

And then those other fantasies came.

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i don’t own my words
they are of us both
i don’t own
my love

Une Rencontre

To say I was a weird kid would be an understatement. With a foster-home haircut, I was often confused for a boy, too. When I saw my first film with Sophie Marceau, I realised a girl who didn’t smile could be beautiful nonetheless, so she sort of became a bit of a role model for a while.

I saw the trailer of Une Rencontre at 6 pm yesterday. Sprang out of bed, popped into the shower, threw on a dress and rallied my way to the cinema.

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The Wooden Stick

If you don’t know what to do, make a small step. Sometimes the change you want seems so vast from where you’re standing that you’d never collect the resolution to become it.

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I am revisiting places. The hardest part is digesting the fact which has just been thrown in my face in a manner that couldn’t possibly be more obvious – and therefore it is horrid – that I am in the same place I’ve been a decade ago.  Read the rest of this entry »

The Sound of Your Voice

I remember a dream I had as a teenager.

I was diving naked under water and seeing unknown landscapes, plants and light that was different from that above.

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