This is not a diary any more


You’ll see, one day you’ll smile at your child and tell her you are so loving because you didn’t get everything you wanted.

I was driving home, feeling nauseous. The sun was finally showing off, painting rainbows on leaden skies. A rare guest this spring, she acts like a schoolgirl skipping class. Read the rest of this entry



to love a man
who can’t
collect himself
to utter my name

Birthday Thank You

I want to take a moment to say how grateful I am to be remembered by every single person today who is very important to me and whose attention is a gift in itself.

Like everyone else I enjoy a warm word and a kind wish on a birthday. It’s even more cool of you to reach me not being conveniently available on Facebook, not throwing a party or reminding of myself in any other way.

You made me think this is the best I could wish for. You made my day fulfilling and me truly happy.

The small things, huh. Never underestimate those.

birthday gift

drowning in anticipation
doubtful of the chance

and then
and then

the ray of sun
making my day
in sweetness
in blossom-like
it’s all i wished for


Good voice. Yup.

Want to Want Me

WTF spider workout 😀


I have come to know those tides now.

They rise. Time and again.

Each time in a different, more and more subdued way. Only a vibration of a deep underground explosion now.

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Not in That Way


I have a friend and we play a game.

It’s called Comfort Zone Project, or CZP. Read the rest of this entry